Finding Peace in Siddhartha
"I have become distrustful of teachings and learning and that I have little faith in words that come to us from teachers." (Page 18) Siddartha experienced this when he was with the Samanas, still seeking for peace of the innersoul. He distrusted teachings because to attain peace, he must learn everything from himself. However, along his journey, he was indebted by a beautiful courtesan, a rich merchant, a dice player, a Bhuddist monk, and Vasudeva, for they had influenced him and he gained great knowledge from each of them.
After leaving Gotama, the Illoustrious One, Siddhartha entered the life of a human being. He met a beautiful ...view middle of the document...
He tasted riches, passion and power, but always remained a Samana in his heart because he had no interest in business.
As he became wealtier everyday, Siddhartha had stopped being a Samana in his heart; he began to play dice for money and jewel for he felt the excitement, pleasure, happiness through each game. Then, Siddhartha suddenly realized that he was leadinga strange path and he felt that life was flowing past him but did not touch him. "His real self wandered elsewhere, far away, wandered on and on invisibly and had nothing to do with his life . He was sometimes afraid of these thoughts and wished that he could also share their childish daily affairs with intensity, truly to take part in them, to enjoy and live their lives instead of only being there as an onlooker." (Page 58) Although Siddhartha entertained himself through each game of dice, he also learned numerous of things from being a dice player.
Tired of living a normal life, Siddhartha left everything behind and went to the river where he once crossed to become an ordinary person. There, he met his childhood friend, Govinda, who halted in his pilgrimage and stayed behind to guard him. Siddhartha was grateful and felt the love he suddenly had for his childhood friend. Govinda taught him the love of friendship, the clemency, the compassion, and lenience between people and people.